Ethan's 5th Birthday in heaven

My dear beautiful little boy today you would be 5 years old. It's amazing how quickly the time has gone and yet part of me feels like we just said good bye yesterday! I can't believe you are 5! That means this fall you would have been starting kindergarten! My Mommy heart aches for all the things we will never get to do together here, I look at your little brother and sister and think about what it would be like for them to get to have you here with us, their big brother, their protector. I know you are happy &  healthy and you don't know pain or sadness only love and for that I will always be thankful. This birthday though has really snuck up on me, I am feeling sadder today, you are a big five year old boy who should be here with his earthly family celebrating instead of watching us from heaven as we go to "visit you" and remember you the only way we can, with balloons and flowers and cupcakes at your graveside. Mommy and Daddy love and miss you always. We know our heavenly father loves you even more than we do and that gives us comfort. We love you to "eternity and beyond" sweet Ethan James. Happy Birthday!