So much joy!

I have been struggling with even being able to coherently put into words all that I am/have been feeling these last few months.  Being a mommy has until Isaac was born a joyful but still extremely sorrowful experience for me.  Even though I love my Ethan with all my heart and will always be his mommy, I will never get to truly be a "mom" to him at least not here on earth.  So now with Isaac here safe and sound I have been able to truly experience all the joy that motherhood has to offer and I am overwhelmed with happiness.  Yes it is hard but it is the most fulfilling and rewarding thing I have ever had the privilege of doing in my entire life.  I could go on for days on just how much I love being a mommy.  It is I believe truly my life's work, my calling and all that I was ever meant for.  To love like never before, to live like never before.  This is now my life and I am so so thankful and grateful for this beautiful blessing that has been given to me and my family.  I know that there will be many challenges to come but I am filled with so much love and joy, I am ready for all of it! Thank you to all the wonderful people who have walked with me/us and continue to be a part of our walk through life.

With Great Love and Joy I leave you,

Ami