My Dear Ethan,
4 years. I still have trouble wrapping my head around the fact that you were born 4 years ago today. 4 years since we met you and said good bye all in the same moment in time. 4 years since I got to hold you, breathe you in, count your fingers and toes and marvel at your enormous chubby cheeks. As I sit here listening to your brother and sister and all their morning silliness I think about how much fuller our house and life would be if you were here with us. Crazy and insanely busy we would have a 4 year old, almost 3 year old and a 1 year old. Instead today we are celebrating your birthday in heaven, we will be bringing you your birthday balloons and treats out to you and all your friends at the baby garden later today. I miss you every day sweet boy. I know you are happy and loved by our father in heaven and play in heaven's gardens. Remember that you are fiercely loved and missed by your Mommy, Daddy, brother, sister, Nonni, GrandDad, Oma, Opa, Aunties, Uncles, cousins and so many others. I love you every day for as long as I have breathe until I see you again. I will carry you with me, in my heart forever. I love you! Happy 4th Birthday!
